the last year’s girl gaggle takeover: perpetual crush;
“What Gaggle means to me” by Gaggle member Perpetual Crush.
I was 19 years old when I joined Gaggle after stalking 586 (Deborah’s previous project) in a previous life and in a weird, it’s-a-small-world chain of events ending up hanging out in the pub where Deborah Coughlin was the events manager.
I had just started dating who I thought was (but later would find out really wasn’t) the coolest guy I ever met. I joined following an elusive Facebook message which stated “no singing, just making noise and hanging out”. Well, there certainly was singing as we were rehearsing what would become the first Gaggle banger: “Crows”.
I don’t think at that time I had been around such a diverse range of women before. I was the youngest which became my # for a while (maybe still in attitude but not in actual age). Any preconceptions I had about growing up were shattered. Puberty, did it ever really end? Awkward body issues, boyfriend trouble, sex troubles, money concerns – Nah man, it just keeps on rolling. I thought I knew it all at 19 but I was so wrong. I thought I had it all planned out but hearing story after story of change and courage and fighting and struggle and success I realized I was in for a well bumpy ride.
I was so impressed by the company I now kept on a Tuesday evening that I invited one of my new friends – from the outside world – in. This was brave, we weren’t best friends but I just felt like she needed to hang around some real women! And she did. And she loved it and thanks me for it every time we’ve decked a few bottles of red wine on the way home from this seemingly simple singing practice.
People always ask if I’ve always wanted to be a popstar but no, the appeal for me definitely lies in the group dynamic and singing in such a large number. I wouldn’t say I feel safe but I definitely do feel warm as we are usually tit to tit on a stage far too small!
I just like the power of it all, it’s not safety in numbers, it’s power in numbers – and the dynamic and the dancing around and just having fun. We really do all like each other. That’s not to say I have never been disappointed or felt lost or even a bit lonely in such a large group, but that’s actually all okay. Normal even. We aren’t a fake product, we moan and we fight and we accidentally kick each other in the head while we sleep on coaches. It’s more like – dare I say without the world vomiting – “family”.